Wednesday, 07 October 2009
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Currently
On Writing: A Memoir of the Craft
By Steven King
see relatedflooded, bugs, cabin
Now we know why they call the land that surrounds our property a "flood plain". It's like a beast of a riverbed pretending to be pasture until it rains a little. Thankfully we're up on a hill, so the muddy ponds don't reach our living spaces. Still, you have to drive through them to get into town and with the mess a week of rain made to our little dirt roads, I can't imagine being able to travel at all if we have more. I need a boat. A boat would be fun and functional. Always an adventure, homesteading.
Speaking of home, we are in the cabin...barn...loft...structure. Whatever you would like to call it, I just look at it as a 10 X 16 space to keep out the rain and bugs. It's cozy and just asking to be decorated, practically begging my creative sensitivities to transform it into a magical hobbit hole where I can snuggle up to writing novels and drinking lots of wine, maybe learn to play an instrument. I want to make curtains and pick out wall paint. Only, we don't have any walls but the outer slats of corrugated metal. Decorating will have to wait. Damn.
I caught a nasty cold last week. Uncomfortable living situations, even little things that normally wouldn't bother a person, become travesties and tragedies when you are sick. Given my lifestyle, I had a hell of a week. But it's over and I'm better now. Chris took care of me. I'm all healed and my eyes are focusing on progress again. We have so much work to do.
Halloween party. Those of you coming, I've gotta tell you, it's going to be mad fun. Hopefully not too scary, since you're all sleeping in tents at night, but scary enough. I'll break out the good china for this one. Maybe buy a picnic table. We'll see.
Monday, 21 September 2009
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Currently
Vivaldi: The Four Seasons; Violin Concertos
see relatednot dead, just off-grid
Wake up before the sunlight is on. Start a fire and put a kettle of water into the heat. Take a shower. Midway through the shower, when your hair is soapy and cold, stop to go find more water (the solar shower bag is empty). Pour the found jug of freezing water over your head to rinse (filling the bag takes too long and is awkward when your wet and wearing a towel). Dry off and let the kitten out of the camper (she likes to chase butterflies in the morning). Prepare the french press, remove the kettle from the now lightly smoldering fire, make coffee. Brush your teeth. Remind Chris that it's morning and he needs to get out of bed. Get dressed and ready for work. Chase down the kitten and toss her back into the camper. Tidy up the campsite and leave for Austin.
Mornings are calm, active, routine. I can claim nothing for the rest of the day, which is often addressed moment-to-moment with hopeful success (though not always achieved). Sometimes we eat dinner at home, sometimes in town, usually depending upon whether we've made it back before the sun is gone or it's too dark to cook. Money is still tight but getting less-so (thank goodness). We hope to finish a cabin before the winter (which, according to Farmer's Almanac, will be cold and wet this year). I worry when all of it will become less novel and more of a chore, but for now I'm still fascinated.
*** Edit ***
The cabin will not be finished before the weather changes. My pretty pony caught up to us (that is, Time) and we had to make a decision. We are going to install a pre-made 10' X 12' lofted barn instead of trying to build one ourselves in the short amount of time that is left before winter. It's sad and I feel like a sell-out, but at least I wont freeze to death (I'm a wuss when it comes to cold weather). Besides, I'm actually excited about the barn. It's semi-custom and built by Mennonites, and the man whom we purchased it through gives half of his profits to charity (hopefully a useful one). So, good karma all around.
Chris was reluctant to decide on a spot for the barn until I decided on where I wanted to place our eventual house. Richard and Miranda have already staked their claim on part of the land and placed a really big version of the relatively small lofted barn that we have ordered in "their space". Choosing a spot for your home is a convoluted process in which you must weigh many factors. That being said, although we didn't exactly point and say "that's pretty, let's put it there", we did something close. After frustrating yourself over a pros and cons list for long enough, you eventually have to put it all aside and decide based on what you like best. So we did and now we have a lovely little spot close to the farthest treeline, directly beside the "big oak" (which may, unfortunately, be rotting so we aren't building underneath it).
I will eventually post photos of the barn. I'm mostly excited about decorating it. I know, lame, but it's that girly nesting thing in my biological make-up. While it is going to be our for-now home, it will eventually become an office/studio for us so I'm going to steer it in that direction. Ikea....I need you.
Thursday, 06 August 2009
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camping for life
Chris and I are relaxing at a coffee house in Austin, enjoying the air conditioning and a couple bottles of beer. He's reading, though I'm not sure what, and is taken by it. I'm getting tipsy and jumping around on the internet, satisfying my tech-cravings while I can. The move went as smooth as it could, I guess. We are living out at the land and, yes, it's hot. But I love it. I wake up to cows and a smooth moon resting on distant trees. Sometimes there are critters, but mostly just bugs and a pleasant breeze. Amen.
Sunday, 26 July 2009
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Currently
The Band - Greatest Hits
By The Band
The Night They Drove Old Dixie Down
see relatedHomesteading in flip-flops
One week till move-out/move-in and the shed is still only four cement posts in the ground. Fail. A fail which cost us almost $100 yesterday when we finally realized we were going to need to rent a small storage unit. We honestly just ran out of time and money. Realizing the shower facility was a more pressing need, we decided to put the money toward it instead. Which, btw, isn't done either (though we will have it mostly finished and functioning by the weekend). It has, thus far, turned out much better than I had expected. It's not the bamboo encircled meditation-chamber-of-paradise that I had envisioned (the Florida dreams of a newly established Texan), but it's still pretty sweet. White corrugated plastic walls, cherry-stained wooden frame, pea-gravel floor with large smooth stones to stand on...not bad for an outdoor shower. I may still plant black bamboo around it, purely for my own zen-enjoyment (though I'm sure I'll get shit for it...bamboo, of course, isn't native to Texas...but then, neither am I).
The camper is up and mostly ready - a great relief to me - and I've even had time to make new cushion covers and curtains for it (...ok, truth-be-told, I've only just started on the curtains). Despite the moldy, holey, tilting, sagging canvas above our heads, the place is actually turning out to be semi-swanky. We'll make it a neo-hippie paradise in no time, sans patchouli and peace signs.
Clean and usable water during a draught is almost impossible to come by for free unless you have a magical flowing spring on your land or lots of money to dig a well. We have neither, but what we do have is a friend, a kind and generous friend with a well. Hopefully. The sketchy lets-cross-our-fingers plan is to fill up 50gallon barrels every month off of a friend's well and haul them back to our place for showering, cleaning, limited watering. We haven't actually spoken to said friend about this yet, though I think I could track down a persuasive bribe that will definitely tilt the odds in our favor (he smokes pot). We'll pay him, of course, and do all of the labor ourselves. Still. People are sometimes uncomfortable with giving away natural resources. Go figure.
One week and I'll no longer have air conditioning. One week and "eyes-to-the-ground!" constantly watching for snakes and chomping critters. One week and I'll no longer pay rent or utilities. One week and the count down till winter begins, the great can-we-finish-the-cabin-in-time race! The drama of my peers muffled by the day-to-day necessities, problems, projects. Fantastic sigh of relief.
Tuesday, 14 July 2009
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New music video
I've been in Florida soaking up the sun and hanging with the family. But I'm back now, and I wanted to post my brother's new music video.
See Fernando, Jenny Lewis.Jenny Lewis "See Fernando" from Team G on Vimeo.
It's his best yet, in my opinion. Bravo, Alan!
Monday, 22 June 2009
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The Shed...Phase I
First of all, let me say that I spent yesterday feeling worse than I have in a long time. I overdid it, I think, and dehydration and exhaustion kept me from being able to move around too much. My body decided to shut down. It was strange. I've never gotten to that point before, but it was obvious why I was sick. However! We finished the posts! I'm so proud. It may not seem like a lot to others, but to us it's the first step of many and one of the most difficult. The very fact that we are progressing (though in small ways) toward our ultimate goal (moving out to the land) makes me feel like dancing. It's wonderful.
These photos aren't the most entertaining, but...hell, it's all I've got. Post-hole digging isn't all that interesting.
I bought a tool-belt. Yeah. I'm legit.
Fun times with a leveler.
Cows. Obviously.
It's a hole. That's all I've got.
Thursday, 18 June 2009
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Diggin' Holes
Phase I - build a shed
Harder than it sounds, what with packed Texas clay to dig into. Alas, still no cement poured. I guess we'll do that this weekend. I am exhausted.
Sunday, 31 May 2009
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I was so much older when I was young
I've been reading old entries from eight-or-so years ago that I posted in Livejournal, and this one really hit me. I hope that I am still this person....
"I'm currently listening to some operatic music set to techno. Most of the songs, as opera usually goes, aren't in English. In fact, I have absolutely no idea what the vocalists are singing about. However, I sense such a deeply spiritual...something...connection....when I listen to them. At times, I'm brought to the point of tears (or something like tears) because my spirit just can't handle the feelings it's having drawn out of it. There is a love, sadness, joy, pain expressed in the notes, in the singer's voice, whether she/he is singing about any of these things. A dangerous love that makes you want to rip your heart out and hand it to someone, something, or hurl it into the song itself and pray that the notes will carry it to god. When I was a dancer performing in the Jacksonville Nutcracker, I remember leaning over the orchestra pit while the symphany rehersed, closing my eyes, and wishing that I could throw myself into the pit and somehow merge with the music. It was somehow...spiritual, or it touched and stroked something in my spirit that I'd never felt before.
It doesn't end with music, though. Poetry, a quote, a gift, a memory, a movie, an image...anything that reflects or draws something out your spirit, or the very thing that is you, causes something inside to stir or scream or dance or cry...
If God didn't touch me in this way, if what I felt was simply an emotion of joy, if I thought knowing God would simply make me happy, I probably wouldn't care to reach out to God. No, no..that's what prozac is for. A single emotion of joy isn't life, not really, and I don't believe that worshipping God is always out of joy, or even always causes joy. And the face of worship isn't restricted to singing a song, offering a prayer, or burning some incense. No, no, no. Although religion calls for just that, because in our modern thinking, we need even worship to be formulized, bullet-pointed. Do this this this and this and you will get this result. Can we please move past that? Love cannot be formulized, just as God can't (won't) be formulized.
And I think I'm done, for now. My mind is dancing."I'm glad that I was there at one time. Now how to get back.
Friday, 29 May 2009
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On the other side...
A felllow "red camper" sent an email out today that really sums up my first Flipside experience, so I wanted to share it...
"Redcampers,You are all such beautiful, complex gifts. Like clockwork that loves to dance.
I want to thank you all for your Beauty, Bellies, bliss, Boobs, Butts, cigarettes, costumes, Dancing, darkness, decoration, Drugs, fear, fierceness, food, friendship, fun, Getting waylaid, Giggles, gushiness, hands, healing, Heart, help, kisses, Laughter, “Lighters”, lips, lounging, love, music, nakedness, observation, quietness, peace, presence, ridiculously hard work, sense of adventure, service, sexuality, silliness, singing, soft skin, snuggling, sound, spirituality, squishiness, structures, tears, touch, trampolining (naked, wet, and otherwise), transformation, truth, voices, walk abouts, willingness.
I also want to thank the spirit of flipside and burning man for showing us, truly, what humans can do. We can create the world that we want. We are creating the world that we want. Thank you for showing us our place in the universe, between the sun and the moon and the stars, above the grass and the earth. We celebrate there, us humans, reveling in our aliveness. We spark, we dance, we love, we build. We transform. Thank you for allowing so many openings - in ourselves, between each another, between us and something higher. Everything we need passes through these openings. I am humbled by and grateful for these gifts. I will do my best to remain open.
Thank you for giving us what we need. Thank you for giving us what we need. Thank you for giving us what we need.
There are no other words.
Wendy"
Wendy is a fantastic person who found all of the words I've been unable to express since Flipside. I still feel a sense of complete awe. Next year.
Saturday, 16 May 2009
Wednesday, 13 May 2009
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Currently
Our Endless Numbered Days
By Iron & Wine
see relatedA need/wish list for a Peter Pan
August creeps closer every day and Chris and I's planning has become more and more detailed as we try to work out how to live out of a pop-up camper. We have a wish list, of course, of things that will make life "more comfortable", but we are currently working on essentials.
Here is what we have/own (these are all found image from the internet, not actual photos of the things we have):
Pop-up (this isn't our's, but it looks very much like it)
The inside does NOT look like this, but maybe some day we'll get close. I can dream.
Solar Shower Bag
A Truck (I don't need to post an image of a Truck...it's just a Truck).
and lots of building materials.
Here is what we need (as in, we need to build/buy these things before we can move out there):
A nice, large shed for storage and (for me) a place to set up drawers for clothing and a full-length mirror:
An outdoor shower. Also not quite this nice...we're building something like a small enclosed room (bamboo walls) with a gravel and smooth-rock floor (so that the water can travel back into the soil...which means we have to use all-natural bathing products) and a pole to hang the shower bag on. Basic, but as this is one of the more exciting things (for me...I've ALWAYS wanted an outdoor shower) I'm going to put a little extra money into it. I want it to be incredible, despite the lack of plumbing. Very Zen.
A composting toilet. So expensive, but so worth it. And, of course, an enclosure for the toilet.
Hammocks with mosquito netting (living the dream, kids...sleeping outdoors is wonderful...I feel like I'm becoming one of the lost boys from Peter Pan...maybe I am...I guess I need an animal costume and a slingshot):
We also have to build a dog fence for Peanut. We wont like it, but it's really for his own safety. He has thing thing with cows...and cows will crush his little body if he's not careful. (there are cows that periodically graze through our fields because we haven't put a fence up yet..and, really, we don't want to fence it off until we have our own livestock and can continue to keep our Aggie tax exemption).
Here is my magical wish list of dreams and expensive items that we don't need yet but REALLY want:
Small solar energy system:
A tiny home (and I wants it for my own!), though this is basically what we are planning on building while we're out there so that the winter will be much easier to deal with. We will eventually move into the cabin so that one of the other Icoza members can move into the pop-up. Eventually, the tiny home will be a guest house for visitors.
A water well and pump (dreams, dreams). We thought this particular equipment would be out there by the time we moved in August, but our pricing was a little off and no one has the money to have someone drill it for us yet. Apparently, you have to go down about 400ft for clean water (we were aiming for 100ft), which is substantially more expensive. Some day, though.
We'd also like to have goats, chickens, and maybe a donkey. We're not quite there yet (myself or Chris would have to quit our Austin jobs in order to do this). Someday, someday.
Small green house (absolutely no reason to build this until the well has been put in):
And that's all I'm going to list, because I've finished my beer and have to clean up the house now.
I'm very excited.
Saturday, 02 May 2009
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Currently
The Great Hunt (The Wheel of Time, Book 2)
By Robert Jordan
see relatedI'm gonna be a farmer and probably really really stinky and poor
I know I've said it before, but yesterday Chris and I finally made the solid decision to move out to the land in August. We've been going back-and-forth for a few months, mostly because we both really enjoy our jobs (I recently got a raise) in the city and we could only see quitting said jobs to move out there (and I would have to quit dancing). We went over our budgets yesterday, and it would actually be less expensive for us to commute into Austin five days a week then to continue paying rent and living in the city. Not that we want to live in the city. The point is to move out to the land and start...building, I guess? Creating. Farming. Raising chickens. Milking goats. That kind of thing. So. As of August, I'm going to move into a pop-up camper. Jesus Christ.
Yes, a pop-up camper. We don't have a well yet (something we would have had months ago had we known we would have to dig 300ft instead of 100ft) so we're going to use rain water collection with a filtration system...and the kindness of friends with functioning showers. Since we wont have running water, we're going to build an outhouse with a composting toilet. Oh yeah, we're that hard core. Since summer in Texas is a scary hot place to be, we're going to sleep in hammocks outdoors instead of inside the camper (because we also aren't going to have electricity to run any sort of fan, though we are going to buy a small generator).
While I write this, part of me feels the excitement of an upcoming adventure and another part of me wonders if we can pull it off. The thing is, I'd rather try and fail then continue saying I'm going to do it till eventually I look around and realize that I'm no longer in a place where I can. I'm still considered a crazy kid with a dream, but some day I will be looked at as just...crazy. So. Grab the bull by the horns, as they say. I'm moving to the country to become an organic farmer. Thank god Dairy Queen has free wi-fi.
Thursday, 30 April 2009
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Fable - Part One - Very Rough Draft
Or maybe it's not a fable. I started this story last year as a birthday gift to my younger sister (not-so-loosely based on her), but I've been stuck since writing the first line of dialogue. Her birthday falls in August and I've decided to finish it by then. I have the ending, just not the lead-up to the ending. Also, as a sort of disclaimer, the final story will be printed in a small book with artwork and such, much like a children's book. I say this because it may seem a quick and disconnected read as a short story. It is a rough draft and I will probably go back and "fluff it up" a bit, but...anyway, here it is.
Untitled (as of yet)
They called her the snake charmer, the turtle chaser, the horse rider. They called her wild and free, as all good things are. The tint of her hair shifted with the seasonal color of leaves; yellow, umber, toasted almond, sometimes a deep burnt black. Drifting shaded eyes glanced over the world and she watched it with wonder, participating often in real-time day dreams and thinking nothing of the lightless souls who ridiculed her adventure. She was happy.
All of that changed when she heard the legend. Caught up in the lost story of a charmed beast who could grant her a single wish, her contentment blurred into frenzy and need; an unquenchable want. That is when she set out to charm a wolf.
The vague stories of a dark enchanted forest led her to the ends of the world, to a place where time and sanity meant little to the creatures who dwelled and entered there. She arrived in this land of myth, a black silk dress hanging loosely off her body, thick leather boots on her feet and a silver bracelet looped around her wrist. She brought nothing to eat and only a canteen of dark wine to drink.
The night wind pitched the dense tree line forward, an entire forest bowing a rickety greeting to the pale creature who arrived at their feet. The girl - fearless, breathless - nodded in grave response, then entered the wood.
A man will stumble every step he fears. This girl, this brave-hearted one, her lissome footpath met the uncertain terrain with unfaltering determination. On and in and down and deeper, she leapt toward her chosen fate, toward the wolf who would grant her a wish. She willed the sound of her heart outward into the darkness, and sang along her deepest desire to the rhythmic pounding beat.
She wished.
She wished.
She wished.
Cold yellow eyes, two moons looking out at her from a spider web of branches, caught her attention. She paused to stare back and smiled.
“Hello Wolf.”
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